Calzonudo

"Calzonudo" is a Mexican expression used to describe someone who is stubborn. It’s often an expression that grandmothers use when speaking to children. My grandmother and my mother frequently called me this because I was a stubborn child. At the same time, "los calzonudos" were indigenous people who participated in the Mexican Revolution War were known for their brave, fierce, and tenacious actions. Most of them used their farming tools as weapons in battle showing no fear in front of his enemies, this is why the subborn actitud in some persons it's related whit this people.

The investigation/art project "Calzonudo" explores the personal and family archive as a tool for understand the history and relations between the members of our family and discober new ways of afectivity inside our family.

Since the death of my grandmother, the mother of my mother, i've was obssesed with understad my family story and the missing of her person, like my secund mother was an element that hurts a lot. As well, when my aunt (sister of my grandmother) dies this situation grows and create a big trauma that reflex in bad-dreams, sadness and nostalgic toughs. Desing and process this emotions from the art pespective helped to undarstand and confront this situation.

The use of performative actions, analisis and mortuorius rituals as pieces mad of this project a big tool that instandly lead to my mother relation and shows than the arte can transform the human relations, been able to re-signify the relationship with others.

"Calzonudo" is use the dialog, the interviews, cartography, maps, photography, audio and performance as pieces of a big and long term project that transt over the bounds between art and live.

I constantly ask myself about the ways of being.

I think about how a word passes through us, how a word transforms us, how gestures and manners determine who we are.

I wonder about my mother and my mother's mother—questions that, in the end, are questions about myself.